my mistake

I’m still at the same place
I’m weary from wandering by your side
Even today, as I was wandering
Day has passed again and again
Now I’m here
You know. You know that my heart is hurting
Watching you laugh and smile makes my heart ache more
All It’s my mistake for not making you love me more

It’s my mistake for loving you more than you loved me
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to…

How much longer must I cry?
As I’m believing that promise
You lied to me to wait for you even my greedy side has growntired
You know, You know that my heart is hurting
You can’t just ignore and laugh or smile like that

I knew I couldn’t have you
But my heart for you just kept growing
It’s my mistake for,
Waiting by myself
Regretting by myself
Loving you
Even though my heart was hurting

It’s my mistake for not letting you go
I’m such a foo I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go, it’s my mistake
Even though it could be all my mistake,that’s ok.
As long as you’re there…
Always…
Please forgive me for being like this,the person "Who loved you”

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your father should say this to you "Son,you can play that guitar but don't ever played a girl" or he already said it to you?

dear boy...

It’s 2 in the morning in my side of the country and you seriously, seriously, need to get out of my head.
Do you know what you do to me? Do you know what your presence does to me? Your smile? Your glare? Your pout? Your laughter? You mess with me. You mess with my head all the time.

You really live up in my head. You take away the air around me. As soon as I see you, you leave me gasping for air. You stop time when I see you when I could be doing something else important. You leave me dying when I see you from a distance and you make me smile like an idiot when I see you laugh.

You’re mean. MEAN. You make me crazy. Incoherent. Dazed out. You show yourself in my head and weak my insides to make my heart beat faster.

People think I’m crazy because of you. People think I waste my time a lot. See what you did? Now why can’t you just appear in my doorstep one of these days, take my hand and say hi? Say that you’re sorry for all the things that you’re doing to me EVERY SINGLE DAY.

… But…
…you… can’t…
…Cause you… you don’t want to know me anymore.
Who am I to you?
Nobody.
But who are you to me?
you are..... idk,but you are something important in my heart now. =.="

Nevertheless, I’ll be waiting for your apology. No matter how long it takes. I’ll wait for you to say that you’re sorry for keeping me up at night, for taking away my air and for wasting my time writing random love letter for you.
And if this letter lands in someone else’s hands and sees me as a very crazed delusional girl, well then, yes I am. But blame him. Blame that boy.

I’m finally off to bed now. And I ask that you stay away from my dreams. Because I don’t want to be with you when you’re just going to leave me when I wake up. I know how mean you are that way.

buat seseorang :)

im waiting for nothing.
you are my dream when I'm not sleeping.
you're never love me like I love you.
i dont know why i'm so afraid to lose you, when you aren't even mine?
sometimes i hate my self. I say that I miss you. but I can't do anything for it.
I don't hate you for not loving me, but I hate my self for still loving you.
Can you feel my heart beat when I with you? Of course you can't feel it. Poor me
sometimes i wish I'm a robot, can't feel anything. Or maybe a cyborg. So, I can turn on/off my mood easily.

but,if i could choose one thing, I would choose you. For sure.
i'm single,you are single, but why we cant be together?

i drop my tear in the sea. the day I found it, it will be the day for me to stop loving you
Forget someone who i love like you is like remember someone who never i meet.
but please give me time to forget you

regreting

What can I do about something that already ended?
I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I am.

Even today, without a doubt, i can’t get out of it..
i can’t get out from the thoughts of mine about you.

Now I erased all of you.
I emptied out all of you, but when the rain falls again all the memories of you I hid with effort it all comes back, it must be looking for you.

i really cant :(

now when i eat, i can’t swallow with the tears running down
i tell myself i have to keep eating
i cant hear a song, or the humming of the earth
when i watch a movie, i cant remember what i saw

i cant eat well, because im thinking of you
i think your thoughts have changed , since you left
i keep on living, eating with the tears running down
i cant ride the bus, because im afraid someone will laugh at me
im afraid i might start crying, i cant do anything i cant live without you

now when i drink, i cant get drunk with the tears running down
even when the bottle is empty, because im only thinking about you
what am i living for, if you are not with me
i cant do anything when im here alone

without you i cant smile ,i cant move without you
anything, i cant do anything

i need your love
you know well why i am living alone
without you im nothing
i don’t know anything but you, i cant eat well without you

i cant bear dieing, because you may come back
you may find me someday, i cant do anything
today , and tomorrow too, i only want you

my baby boy ♥

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